Friday, January 29, 2010
today was a fun day.. went to church.. after everything went home.. then meet him at my house downstair.. while chatting we took a walk.. so we decided to go to my korkor's house.. went there nth to do.. sleep, sleep n sleep.. until 7.30pm.. realised i was late to go home!!! i wake up n went home with him.. around 8pm plus... lazy to type.. blah blah blah..
today was a boring day.. wanted to go cd this morning.. guess wat?! i woke up late.. nvm.. then brush my teeth then ate my breakfast.. after that went to church for spring cleaning.. i mop the floor, sweep, carry books and throw rubbish away.. sound like a miad.. hahaz.. but quite fun la.. then suddenly my bro smsed me.. he said that he got a fever.. so my mum n i went home.. after that my mum went out.. so i decided to find him.. miss him too much le..(lolx.. i know very mushy just ignore it.. ><) went home around 6-7pm plus.. lazy to blog... ... ...
Friday, January 22, 2010
today was a fun day! after school went to eat roti prata.. then went for cca.. today was games day for my cca.. my station is egg station.. it was fun and interesting!! then after that do drills.. not bad.. after that went to kfc for dinner with my cca friends.. we were talking about the ppl we dislike.. then kenneth walked me to the bus stop.. lolx.. so kind.. but still prefer him(my boyfriend).. that's all for today!.. lazy to post..
Thursday, January 21, 2010
should i let go?.. i think i'm the worse-est girlfriend on earth.. i hate myself.. i dun really know my boyfriend that well.. i'm retarded.. haiz.. sad.. hope that he forgives me.. i dun know wat to do now.. haiz.. D: wat have i done?! why am i doing all this things to him?.. isit becuz of my first ex did it to me?.. i dun know.. becuz he did something bad to me.. he had other girls when i'm with him.. he asked me out but i rejected.. he said that i can't make him happy.. so i dumped him.. from that relationship onwards i think that all guys always wanned that thing then after that dump his girlfriend..(dun ask me wat thing.. u guys should know..) so i decided to do the same way to my relationships..(won't tell u how many relationships i had..) but i didn't i asked them out.. but once i met him i find him different from the others.. i admitted that i have betrayed him once.. i felt sorry.. but broken is broken.. i hope that the scar will be removed from his heart.. i'm an ass.. i do really love him.. he's the only guy i really love, trusted n care the most.. i will never let go of him.. but if i have to i will.. now he talks to another girl.. i felt sad n jealous.. then i will start slashing myself.. but i promised him i won't do it.. haiz.. hope that "our" future will come true.. i really re-grated for wat i had done to him.. cuz he is a nice guy with a good character.. i really hope that i will change.. no one know this story until i blog it out.. maybe my love is a lie to him forever.. but to tell the truth i will promise to love him until the end of my life.. i hope that he is fine now... that all i can say.. i won't tell u his name.. dun find out urself.. cuz u dun have to know who.. some will know.. he will know who is that..
today was a boring and sad day.. dun know y.. after school do CNY decorations until 7.00pm.. after that went to play basket ball with my darling geraldine, wee joe korkor n him.. ^^ then i can't score for 2 pointer.. i'm so lousy!!! but not bad lah.. cuz after all the air balls finally one went in!!! so happy!! cuz got my friends were cheering for me!! then after that went home with my brother and raymond's guitar.. then he came running towards my brother n i.. so he walked home with us.. then after that said goodbye to him and went home.. then reached home took off my shoes n socks then played with my hamsters.. after that online msn n started to blog..
today was a fun day!.. went to East Coast Park to build sandcastle.. then he send me home so happy..^^ after school went for nco camp.. do presentation so nervous until i forgot wat to say.. so embarrassed.. after nco camp went home alone.. so lonely.. wish he was beside me.. haiz.. nvm.. online msn... blah blah blah.. then smsed him.. after that i was asleep..
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Maybe we are not fated to be together.. haiz.. i dun know.. when i heard he said that person's name i feel sad and neglected.. isit becuz i'm jealous? or i love him too much?.. i hate myself i wish i could die.. i'm stupid n useless.. i'm nothing.. just a pathetic, dumb n hopeless fool..
it was a sad day.. woke up at 6.55am.. prepare to go to school he was late again.. very sad.. haiz.. skip to the last lesson.. during English lesson i was sleeping.. didn't care what was the teacher talking.. after school i went to do my class CNY decoration.. dun know wat to do cuz the ldr never tell us wat to do and she/he went home.. it was bored.. after that i followed my friends to buy food for geraldine. then we went back to school.. geraldine was spamming wee joe n raymond cuz she was super hungry.. we sat down n chatted for quite long and went home.. lazy to type.. ... ...
it was a boring day.. he was late again.. sad.. skip to the part after school.. after school i went home to sign my cca form and i was surprised that my hamster(pearl) gave birth!.. then i went back to school.. ate my lunch n went for my cca.. it was bored n sucky!!! becuz of my seniors!! they keep on punishing us(cadets).. they thought their drills were very good and they said that our drills is SHIT!! nvm forget it.. skip to the part when i went home.. when i went home i started blogging..
Monday, January 18, 2010
early in the morning 7.30am wake up.. so tired.. prepare to go church.. after church went home.. 3.30pm i went to buy my sandals with him.. then bought one pair of sandals which cost $6.. cool.. lolx.. after that we bought bubble tea.. while we were drinking we were chatting n walking.. after that we sat down on a staircase near my house n chat.. soon it was 6pm plus.. he had to go.. sad.. i miss him so much... haiz.. dun feel like posting le..
Saturday, January 16, 2010
today was a bored day.. lolx... woke up at 1.10pm.. cuz last night i slept at 4.07am.. eat my breakfast n lunch together then after a while call him.. while chatting with him i was reading the new paper after that i wen to clean my hamsters cage.. when we were chatting i think he was asleep.. lolx.. nvm.. then i went to cut my hair.. haiz... now my hair so short.. i regret for cutting it.. D: sad.. after that he went to find me.. i was very happy that he find me becuz I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!! i know is kinda mushy.. xD skip to the part to i'm going to church.. after my dinner took bus no. 5 to my church.. after church went home taking taxi.. then use com..
Friday, January 15, 2010
it's time to change.. be more emo, quiet, hardworking, faithful, go home straight after sch n anti social..
today was a busy day.. woke up at 6.55am.. so tired.. got prepared to go to sch.. after that 7.30am i went down to my block.. GUESS WAT?! i didn't see him again =.=' i was sad n disappointed.. D: during CPA lesson i was slping.. didn't really hear wat Mrs Alina Tan was talking.. she gave the class a worksheet my mind was blank.. i dun know how to do so i asked Carinna.. behind her was my korkor Zi Hao.. lolx.. he keep giving me the answers... cool.. after CPA i went home with Erica, Nicole and Cherie.. when we reached my house my brother (meat ball, Jin Yang) was at home with his friends.. we changed to CD uniform.. but i didn't.. i lost my rank n belt.. i felt so terrible.. then i realised it was with my sis's friend Amanda.. i was only the odd one wearing pt shirt.. haiz.. sec 1 orientation.. i have to teach the sec 1 how to do CPR.. i was talking at the top of my voice.. because the band was too noisy.. after that my friends n i went to mac.. i was coping my friend's food n we were gossipping about ppl.. alright.. now skip to the part at night.. i was asleep about 10plus.. then i woke up.. i realised that someone was calling me so i picked up.. GUESS WAT?! he called me!! i was freaking happy!!! :D :D :D :D both of us chatted for a while then hang the phone.. after that i went to bathe after bathing i realised that the com was not off so i decided to use it..
Thursday, January 14, 2010
today was a happy plus sad day.. haiz.. dun know why.. 7.30am "he" was late to fetch me to sch.. nvm.. after that photo taking.. OMG!! SO SUCKY!! cannot let down my front hair.. sian.. after sch do CNY decoration.. draw, draw, draw... after drawing.. sleep, sleep ,sleep... lolx.. later i went to play basket ball with my friends.. after that i went emoing... bought a pen knife.. wanted to cut but.. i realised that there was a lady looking at me!! PATHETIC!!! i kept the pen knife n walk to another corner.. start emoing... i realised that she is coming towards me.. ok.. that sucks! should i say that she is a stalker?! no offence.. she chatted with me for a while.. she asked me to go home so i went to find geraldine.. i hugged her n went home.. after i reached home.. take off my shoes n socks.. then play with my hamsters.. after that i called "him" chatted for a while then hang le.. then i went to polish my boots.. the more i polish the worst-er it get.. so i stopped.. after polishing i went to bathe.. 30mins later use com n started to use msn..
