Thursday, January 21, 2010
should i let go?.. i think i'm the worse-est girlfriend on earth.. i hate myself.. i dun really know my boyfriend that well.. i'm retarded.. haiz.. sad.. hope that he forgives me.. i dun know wat to do now.. haiz.. D: wat have i done?! why am i doing all this things to him?.. isit becuz of my first ex did it to me?.. i dun know.. becuz he did something bad to me.. he had other girls when i'm with him.. he asked me out but i rejected.. he said that i can't make him happy.. so i dumped him.. from that relationship onwards i think that all guys always wanned that thing then after that dump his girlfriend..(dun ask me wat thing.. u guys should know..) so i decided to do the same way to my relationships..(won't tell u how many relationships i had..) but i didn't i asked them out.. but once i met him i find him different from the others.. i admitted that i have betrayed him once.. i felt sorry.. but broken is broken.. i hope that the scar will be removed from his heart.. i'm an ass.. i do really love him.. he's the only guy i really love, trusted n care the most.. i will never let go of him.. but if i have to i will.. now he talks to another girl.. i felt sad n jealous.. then i will start slashing myself.. but i promised him i won't do it.. haiz.. hope that "our" future will come true.. i really re-grated for wat i had done to him.. cuz he is a nice guy with a good character.. i really hope that i will change.. no one know this story until i blog it out.. maybe my love is a lie to him forever.. but to tell the truth i will promise to love him until the end of my life.. i hope that he is fine now... that all i can say.. i won't tell u his name.. dun find out urself.. cuz u dun have to know who.. some will know.. he will know who is that..
