Friday, February 26, 2010
i often close my eyes and i can see u smile.. you reach out for my hand and i'm woken from my dream.. although ur heart is mine.. it's hollow inside..i never had ur love n i never will.. and every night i lie awake.. thinking maybe u love me like i've always loved u.. but how can u love me like i love u when u can't even look at me straight in my eyes.. i've never felt this way to be so in love.. to have someone there.. yet feel so alone.. aren't u supposed to be the one to wipe my tears.. the one to say that u would never leave me.. the water clam and still.. my reflection is there i see u holding me.. but then u disappear.. all that left of u is a memory.. on that only exists in my dreams.. i dun know wat hurts u.. but i can feel it too and it just hurts so much.. to know that i can't do a thing and deep down in my heart.. somehow i just know that no matter wat i'll always love u.. so y am i still here in the dark?..
bored bored bored... who can pei me go out study?
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
PLZ STOP SPAMMING MY BLOG IF U DUN HAVE TO! I'M WARNING U!! DUN TRY ME!! WHOEVER U ARE HOPE THAT U UNDERSTAND THIS MESSAGE! IF U DUN UNDERSTAND STOP BEING A SMART ALEX SPAMMING IN MY BLOG!! IF U HAVE NTH BETTER TO DO THEN
GO TO HELL!!! UNDERSTAND?!
GO TO HELL!! FREAK U!! I'M GIVING U ANOTHER CHANCE IF U STILL DO IT!!
BIG MISTAKE!! BYE AND GET THIS MESSAGE UNTIL IT PENETRATE INTO UR BRAIN!!
back to blog.. today quite fun.. went to wee joe's house to study.. study half way... geraldine emo.. but both of us went crazy.. we were laughing n whacking wee joe n raymond.. lolx.. went home about 7plus.. had dinner then play com n blog..
Saturday, February 20, 2010
haiz.. hope
he dun go.. i just wan him to stay with me.. cuz i love him.. i dun wan him to leave me or i leave him.. miss him lots.. D:today was a fun day.. stay at home play com do nth.. then went out awhile with him.. he told me a bad news.. the bad news is he is going to Europe.. dun know he is coming back or not.. D: stunned at the moment.. almost cried.. but can't.. dun wan him to be worried.. went home 6pm plus.. called him.. then we chatted.. blah blah blah.. then on9 msn and listen to music..
Friday, February 19, 2010
today was a sad day.. cried a lot.. .. am i really his? does he really love me? heart broken.. *sobs* wat should i do? i dun know.. i'm confused.. but i'm glad that i have my DARLING NICOLE to be my listening ear.. :) although i'm still sad.. but thanks for everything darling.. you're the best! raymond too.. :D
Thursday, February 18, 2010
today was a bored day for me.. math n eng i was sleeping.. too tired.. haiz.. after school went to ikea play hide n seek with him n my friends there then went to giant.. many things happened... blah blah blah.. pei him awhile then go home le..
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
14 Feb 2010it was valentine's day and chinese new year.. went to church in the morning.. then went home.. after that rest for awhile.. while resting i was waiting for his reply.. wait wait wait... so long.. nvm use to it.. bored.. then finally he replied.. so happy.. :D then i went to my grandfather's house.. ate there, play poker cards, smsing him and take red packets then went home.. few hours later my cousins came.. but i went out with him!! so happy!! lalala.. wish that every valentine's day can celebrate with him... :D i love u darling babe!! hahaz..
Thursday, February 11, 2010
yesterday was our 1year 7months anniversary..
he pei me quite long.. about 2hours plus? love
him so much!! today was a fun day.. after school went to cs.. watch Valentine's Day.. it was funny n nice.. after that went home with
him, geraldine n eugene.. then after that had dinner with my didi's friend n my didi.. then went home..
Monday, February 8, 2010
can't feel his love.. can't feel his care.. can't feel anything from him.. but i still love him a lot.. i dun think he can feel it.. i always think that he given up on me.. D: trying to control my mood swing.. it's really bad.. haiz.. sad.. *sobs*
it's a sad day today.. met him in the morning.. so happy can see him early in the morning.. :D in class do class decoration.. so bored.. but i did tried my best.. after that when to play basket ball with him n my friends.. then when home.. skip, skip ,skip.. online msning chatted with him.. then blog..
Thursday, February 4, 2010
can't feel his love can't feel anything.. the feeling from him to me is like fake..
today was a sad day.. cried a lot.. after school something happened not telling.. then went to dental.. puck my tooth so pain.. nid injections.. ='( then went to play basket ball.. after that went home had dinner then blog..
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
feeling sad.. i dunno y.. feeling mad.. i wan to die.. there's nothing can heal my emotional i'm lonely.. find that my family members dun love me.. y the word"family" can't be "famihy" I'm just a loner in the dark with no one, sun light, smile, love, etc.. although i have a boyfriend i can't feel that he loves me.. maybe the three words i love you is just a word with no meaning.. so is meaningless.. my heart was broken many times.. was once cured but it's broken again.. feeling hurt.. i dunno wat to say..it's a long long journeytill i know where i'm supposed to beit's a long long journeyand i dun know if i can believewhen shadows fall and block my eyesi am lost and know that i must hideit's a long long journeytill i find my way home to youmany days i've spentdrifting on through empty shoreswondering wat's my purposewondering how to make me strongi know i will falteri know i will cryi know u'll be standing by my sideit's a long long journeyand i need to be close to usometimes it feels no one understandsi dun even know yi do the things i dowhen pride builds me up till i can't see my soulwill u break down these walls n pull me throughcause it's a long long journeytill i feel that i am worth the priceyou paid for me on calvarybeneath those stormy skieswhen satan mocks n friends turn to foeslit feels like everything is out to make me lose controlit's a long long journeytill i find my way home to uto u...
back to blog! he came late again by 1min.. but nvm la.. at least he came.. so happy..^^ today class no outing stayed in school for SBO.. FREAKING BORED! no offence.. after that went to play basket ball.. dun know why so emo walking behind alone.. play until nail bleed finger also.. =.=' haiz.. play le went home with him.. said goodbye then went home le.. btw just wan to wish tze kung and tian xin HaPpY bIrThDaY !!
